beholders_eye (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} beholders_eye) wrote,@ 2005-10-25 11:45:00 |
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Do you think I should adhere to that pressing new frontier?
And leave in my wake a trail of fear?
Or should I hold my head up high
And throw a wrench and spokes by
Leaving the air behind me clear?
Don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
Remember why you came
And while you're alive
Experience the warmth before you grow old.
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I really do love incubus. It's a pretty good band to listen to for almost any occasion. Anyway, I am resurecting my livejournal.. so anyone who still reads it, please post in the comments, so I know who to take off of my friends list and who to keep on. I'm trying to organize so that I can add new friends to the current list.
So why am I resurecting my livejournal? I don't know. Perhaps I just need a place to vent. I don't plan on this becomming such a place, though. My livejournal will now hold more than just idle venting that seems to have comprised my recent journaling history. My livejournal instead will be used for more thoughtful posts. Lj, combined with my deviant art (drivebyphilosopher.deviantart.com) will serve as a means for me to have an outlet of sorts. I will use both of these for an artistic outlet, a way to comment on society at large, and to keep friends updated as to what is happening in my life.
With no further adeu, I have to say that right now, that word is heavy on my mind. "Friends" and friendship itself is such a subjective term. Often, I find, friends may only be such for personal gain. Even further, some so-called friends only are such when you are in front of them listening to them. Backstabbing is such a common thing today... not only in LSMSA. Hell, people around the world have to deal with shit like that. Honestly, though, it does not phase me. In fact, honestly, it angers me and renders me from my everyday complacency.
Things are going to change from now on. I'm not going to just sit and take lsmsa drama as if it is an inevitibility. I'm not going to just accept when people feel the need to be assholes. They mean nothing to me. As long as I still have a small circle of friends to hold onto, anyone outside of that circle does not worry me. I know the powerful bonds of friendship... trust. Trust may be hard to find, but it does exist.. and it is worth grabbing onto.
I have been forced to reevaluate my trust in a lot of people lately. That would make most people depressed or sad.. but doing this has made me realize the people who I CAN trust. There is no better feeling in the world than knowing some people out there have stayed true to you and are still trustworthy, despite rumor-pandering and weak-hearted, cowardly attempts to destroy happiness. Fuck em ;).
And leave in my wake a trail of fear?
Or should I hold my head up high
And throw a wrench and spokes by
Leaving the air behind me clear?
Don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
Remember why you came
And while you're alive
Experience the warmth before you grow old.
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I really do love incubus. It's a pretty good band to listen to for almost any occasion. Anyway, I am resurecting my livejournal.. so anyone who still reads it, please post in the comments, so I know who to take off of my friends list and who to keep on. I'm trying to organize so that I can add new friends to the current list.
So why am I resurecting my livejournal? I don't know. Perhaps I just need a place to vent. I don't plan on this becomming such a place, though. My livejournal will now hold more than just idle venting that seems to have comprised my recent journaling history. My livejournal instead will be used for more thoughtful posts. Lj, combined with my deviant art (drivebyphilosopher.deviantart.com) will serve as a means for me to have an outlet of sorts. I will use both of these for an artistic outlet, a way to comment on society at large, and to keep friends updated as to what is happening in my life.
With no further adeu, I have to say that right now, that word is heavy on my mind. "Friends" and friendship itself is such a subjective term. Often, I find, friends may only be such for personal gain. Even further, some so-called friends only are such when you are in front of them listening to them. Backstabbing is such a common thing today... not only in LSMSA. Hell, people around the world have to deal with shit like that. Honestly, though, it does not phase me. In fact, honestly, it angers me and renders me from my everyday complacency.
Things are going to change from now on. I'm not going to just sit and take lsmsa drama as if it is an inevitibility. I'm not going to just accept when people feel the need to be assholes. They mean nothing to me. As long as I still have a small circle of friends to hold onto, anyone outside of that circle does not worry me. I know the powerful bonds of friendship... trust. Trust may be hard to find, but it does exist.. and it is worth grabbing onto.
I have been forced to reevaluate my trust in a lot of people lately. That would make most people depressed or sad.. but doing this has made me realize the people who I CAN trust. There is no better feeling in the world than knowing some people out there have stayed true to you and are still trustworthy, despite rumor-pandering and weak-hearted, cowardly attempts to destroy happiness. Fuck em ;).
