Current mood:	drunk
Current music:	death cab- I will follow you into the dark

I met so many people this break. These were all people who knew me 2 years ago and have not seen me since. I dont come home very often. Most of the time, I just chill out at a friends house. This break was different, however. It was mardi gras... so of course, I walked 10 miles down streets crowded with drunks. The air smelled like piss, beer, and cigarettes. When I saw the rebel flags and watched civilized society shrink further and further in the distance, I knew I was back home.

Then it struck me...

What if I had stayed? What if I had decided never to come to LSMSA. Would I have been happier, sadder, or what? I suppose this question was brought about by seeing some of my best friends back at home... or at least, my former best friends. I left, not knowing what was in the future for me. I could have stayed back at home, and lived the ignorant life of happy dunkedness that every other cajun seems to invision as utopia.

It was a necessity. I had to leave, I had no other choice. Life was getting so perilous for me that I struggleed for what seemed like an eternity. I found the way to a whole new world at LSMSA.

And then there was you. Your eyes, smile, skin... all blurred into one, beautiful image. Music seems to always follow you, and your touch sends me instantly into a euphoric state of inebriation. Perhaps I still do live in happy drunkedness, just like all the people back here at home. However, these feelings aren't toxic. They are real, pleasing, and deep. They are like tendrils of heaven slipping across my eyelids as I close them to sleep. You taught me how to love and enjoy life.

In my own little stupor, it may seem that I AM drunk. My mind feels like it is spinning. I feel like I am losing connection with the rest of my body... but this is not at all dysphoric. My head is spinning into a higher and higher feeling of joy and happiness. My mind is transcending my body as it invisions the pure beauty that you enamate. I see you... though you are so far away.

We will be with each other soon again.